Draw me close to you

You know, each day, I need to deal with pressures from so many different arenas, it got me disoriented at times. I'm often in a daze, or it seems that I'm in a daze, because, I am thinking. I am constantly thinking. Sometimes, I prefer to think then to talk. In fact, I hate talking, coz it seems like the more I talk, the more wrong stuff will come out of my mouth.

Often times, I really feel as if nothing good comes out of my mouth, nothing good went in either. Too much junk food had made me fat.
Few people around me had kindly reminded me to lose weight.
Yes, I need to watch my weight.

You see, so many things had happened recently. I shared it to some, I still have not shared it to others yet. Truth is, I don't really want to share. I'm a little tired. It seems, as if, testing keep coming, even before one ends, there comes another. I find myself having to adapt to sudden changes very frequently.

Sometimes, I feel that I'm not good enough.

I'm not good enough, I don't even dare to pursue dreams. I am neither here nor there. I will always remember, how exasperated I feel, each time after I met hammy and we would talk about my Uni plans. I never know, what I really wanted. Gideon always ask me to listen to my heart. Hammy says, I ought to be more single minded. Shirls reminded me that even as I give my best for my ministry, I need to set a deadline for my studies.

And the Lord says...
"I will bless you with a future filled with hope--a future of success, not of suffering."Jer 29:11 (CEV)
"Commit to the LORD whatever you do,
and your plans will succeed. "Proverbs 16:3
"In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps." Proverbs 16:9

The best counsel comes from the holy spirit.
The best way to find is to seek actively.
The best way to ask, is to pray.
Prayer and Patience.

I know I am not good enough, but God is more than enough for me. He will make me good, very good.